Finding Jesus on the Back Pew-Broken

My story is a powerful reminder for many women who find themselves battling societal expectations or personal struggles. If you're reading this and feeling lost or broken, know that it's okay. You don’t need to put on a brave face or follow the typical norms. Like myself, you can choose to sit at the back, embrace your brokenness, and let the tears flow. It’s in this state of authenticity that God can truly refine us and work wonders in our lives.

As you navigate through your own challenges, remember that His love will guide you through the flames. Instead of trying to please everyone, focus on your journey with God. He is with you in the darkest of moments, ready to love you, heal you, and transform you. Just as I learned, sitting in the back pew can lead you to profound revelations. Embrace your journey, trust in God’s timing, and allow yourself to be refined.

Love, Rachael 

Often, we feel the pressure to wear a mask—especially in places like church. For years, I put on my usual church smile, pretending to have it all together. But one fateful morning, I made a different choice. Instead of sitting proudly in the middle of the church, I slipped into the back row, feeling utterly broken and unpolished for the first time in my life. Tears streamed down my face, and I realized that she was tired of the facade.

The sermon that day focused on God’s refining fire—a concept that initially seemed terrifying yet intriguing to Rachel. The pastor spoke about how God doesn’t merely warm our hearts with comfort; instead, He purifies us through the flames of His love. This idea stuck with me. I started to understand that breaking down those walls meant letting God enter my life fully. It was in that moment of vulnerability that I truly found Jesus, not in perfection but in her grief and despair.